yes the erection part is true... it's morning and i'm here with morning wood... how lovely... lol... okay now for the serious shit...

anyways... i'm just chilling listening to jamiroquai... they are teh awesomest right now... and we just recieved an awesome phone call this morning... the social worker just called my sister saying that we are going to recieve the baby we've been trying to adopt this friday... pretty fucken cool doggy... about fucken time... after more than half a year... eight mother fucken months of trying and paper work... shit... finally we get some good news, and a real holiday gift... now we could really celebrate christmas... i haven't done that in a couple of years... well... since my mom died... but now things are falling into place... everyone will have thier own reasons to celebrate...

well i'm outs... just wanted to tell the good news... thx for reading...
gumbii...

yeah... the holiday season sucks... i hate it... it fucken sucks... i hate it... i can't shop comfortably, bah... and i need to come up on 50 bucks really quick... lol...

what should i do... um... i did pierce two pretty girls yesterday and made some money... but i need that for something else... i just need to make 50 bucks... um... what should i do... hmm... maybe i could sell something... what could i sell...? i think i'm going to put up my waw pedal on ebay or something... but who would buy it... hmm... oh well... maybe i could do something else... like pimp myself out to a fat girl... lol... but what about the other thirty bucks... LOL...asd;jlksadfkjlsdfkjldfljk adkslfjas;ldfkasdfjasd anyways... i just drank a monster... that means i'm not going to be able to go to sleep tonight... fuck it... the little kid is saying that his toe hurts... my toe has been hurting for about three days now... freaken horrible... it suxors... it doesn't make sense... fucken shit... oh well...

i think i fucked up... bah... i just applied for a credit card and got approved... fuck it... i'm giving it to my sister... that way she could use it to buy herself a tv or something... i'll pay the anual stuff, becouse it's expensive, and she could get whatever she wants as long as she pays it... pretty cool... i'm a good brother... then after a wile when she's payed off like half and the credit line goes up... i'm going to max it out... lol... i don't need credit... the way i see it i allready own a house... i'm never going to get a new car out of the dealer... well not under my name... and i really don't need any credit... just like my cousin cris...he's never had a credit card or even a bank account in his life... pretty awesome... they're sharks... i do need a cell phone though... but i hate phones...

well... happy holliday peeps... i really don't mean that... i hate the hollidays... bah-humbug... now i'm really really full of fucken energy... fucken monster... and it was a mega monster energy drink... fucken holly hell... i love these... i asked for an arizona and some kid brought me a huge monster... some people say you become dependant on them, but that's bullshit... really really bullshit... becouse when i was going to school i would drink like three a day so i wont fall asleep in class... and when i stoped going i stoped drinking them... so i know that's fucken bullshit... but then again i can't get addicted to anything... i have a high tollerance... that's why i don't drink, smoke, do drugs i guess... i've tried everything, but i can't get into them... i used to think i didn't do any of that becouse it was disgusting untill i tried them... now i think they are all right... but i just can't get addicted... i'm super...

we just got a really good phone call... we might be getting my nephew this friday... after about eight months since he was born, trying to adopt him we are going to get him this friday... i really really hope we get him... we were promised that we would get him before thanks giving but we didn't... so this will be really awesome if we get him before chrismas... then i might have something to celebrate this year... looks like things are really starting to look up... i guess since i feel like i'm getting old and with all of my friend's getting either married, or having kids i feel way behind... so this might make up for it... i've been thinking alot about kids... but i don't want to be in a relationship... becouse that gets fallowed up by mariage... yikes... we don't want that to happen... but then again some of my own kids wouldn't be so bad... maybe i'll get me some bitch just to have my kid and get the fuck on... but that sounds like way to much responsibility for me... lol...

only if i had some really cool homegirls... but nope... i haven't had a homegirl for a couple of years... i only know friend's girlfriend's or wifes now... lol... damnit... i should of gotten with a girl from highschool... it was so easy to score with bitches back then... now i can't even walk up to a ho... oh well... i guess i'm not trying hard enough... or maybe it's becouse i don't go out much anymore... i need to get a fucken job... then i could meet alot more people... but i also hate drama... oh well... i need to get my shit straight... i need a beer... lol... i really need to get my tank running... see if i do that today...

gumbii...
wish me luck on the adoption people... i have my fingers crossed...

oh shit... i haven't been here since evAr!!!... i can't believe i ate so much... fucken shit face mother...

well... happy thanks giving mother fuckers... lol... damn i'm so bored... and now i found out that the music i put on my myspace profile isn't playing... fucken shit... i hate everyone right now... bah... oh well... i'm going to make this one short... i just wanted to say happy thxgiving to everyone... i'm just a little ticked off right now...

well... that's it... happy shopping mother fuckers...

oh my freaken god... this song is the fucken shit... it's called corner of the earth and it's by jamiroquai... i can't get enough of this mother fucken song... wow... it's amaizing...

anyways... now up for today's bullshit... yes... i said bullshit... today was nothing but bullshit... okay... we were supposed to go to petsmart and get me a penguin 350 filter, a bottle of biobooster, and... i think that's it... danny got a penguin 200, a test kit, and some other bullshit... but the thing was that we had to go to petsmart to price match the stuff... you know... they price match from the internet... pretty cool... but the thing is that we planned to use the same page, since his filter and mine are the same brand only different size... anyways... we walk into the petsmart... it was danny, jose and me... okay... i know we all look ghetto... wearing the raiders and i was all dirty... but it was becouse i was working under a trailer... anyways... we walk in... mooch around the store and i notice that that fucker was fallowing us... i really don't mind but fuck... he made it really really obvious...

so then we get to the filter isle... we crowded around the aquaclear 110 becouse i was considering it... but those are wraped in shrink wrap... but jose busted out with his knife and opened it up... i was thinking about buying it anyways... so we looked at it, i looked up and what did i see...? the manager with some other punk guy walking towards us... he said... do you need any help... and i was like... yeah... um... what filter do you recomend... and he picked the fucken penguin... that guy didn't know shit... what a fucken tard... so anyways he leaves, and danny told me that he took the other guy off of the register just so he could have back up for us... i guess he thought we were going to start trouble or start stealing... but that's bullshit... fuck them...

but that's not all... once i started talking to the girl that works there... she's really cute and i like her... anyways... i was spreading some game on her, and she mentioned that there was some bullshit earlier with some guys... i guess they were re-arranging shit and getting on everyone's nerves... so i'm like... okay... but what's the deal with your manager... she said he was a dick... i'm like... okay... so then it's time to pay... we were behind this lady on the cash register, and she was buying like a jillion cans of catfood... so then the guy that the manager had as backup re-opened his lane... so we go there... the guy was all nervous... then he didn't know how to price match anything, and he gave danny a hard time kind of... but that was becouse he was scared... he had to ask the manager if it was the correct item...

so then the manager said... yeah it's cool... but make sure you keep this... and he pointed at the printed out price list from the site... so then the guy put it aside, and when it was my turned i told him... "i'm going to use that for this..." he said... "uh... i can't do that... store policy..." i was like "bullshit... they've never done that before, and i priced matched something on the first day you opened..." and it was true... i was probably the first person that went in with that and got anything price matched... so anyways... he didn't want to... so i was like... "okay then... i'll be back in 10 minutes..." and the guy gave a nervous laugh... and jose was behind him and he said... "Fucken dick!..." and the guy laughed again... i guess we really scared him... so when we walked out by the manager, i turned and dogged him out sick... i swear i wanted to stab him in the fucken neck... what a fucken cunt...

so  yeah... now i'm fucken pissed off... i'm going back to petsmart tomorrow and i'm going to dog out the manager again... probably shove him aside or something... what a fucken bitch... i'll even tell the girl i like to tell him that some black guys came in and said that they were going to kill him... lol... that way he will move stores or something... fucken white piece of shit bastard mother fucker... that is one of the reasons i hate white people... that fucker just hates us... ever since jose put one of his employees on the spot and made the manager give him a free filter... lol... and then i told him that all of his employees don't know squat... so now he has some kind of anger towards us... but fuck him... i got at least once every week... so fuck him... ashd;lkgash;dlkfasdh;klfj asdfkl;jas;fkhaskl;gsjkdl ;fa mother fucker... he'll get his...

well that's it for today...
laters....

this is fucken insane... why is this place so freaken horrible... i hate it... if someone's not suffering they have problems, or dieing...

last month we got a phone call from san francisco saying that my 21 year old nephew was killed... so wel all got in the van and attended his funeral... poor kid... it was his birthday... i kept in contact with him thru emails and he always sounded to me like a happy kid... but when i had a talk with my cousin (his mom)... she told me that he tried to commit suicide three times, and always suffered from depression... i never knew... if i knew i would of went to go pick him up and had him living with me... but i had no clue... one day he was looking for his best friend... he didn't find him at his house... then he took off... he would never take off byhimself... and that day they found him dead in his own car... they shot him on the chest... they said some nigger did it... rest in piece bobby... i will always love and remember you...

now today about 10 minutes ago my cousin just died... a close one... he used to live with us... i guess after he got problems with his wife and stuff he started drinking... and today at 2.34 pm he passed away... i just got the call from mexico... oh yeah... he lives down in el grullo, jalisco... poor guy... he was 36 years old... and i can't go to his funeral... this really sucks... this is i guess how it goes when you have a gigantic family... the older you get, the more funerals you get... and what i have noticed that the ones that die first are always the good ones... this sucks... rest in piece gilberto... i will always love and remember you...

i can go on for days... but i can't...

gumbii...

fuck it all... i hate everyone and everything right now... i feel like shit... why did this have to happen now... it's such a nice day... and i can't go outside to do what i have to do...

okay... so yeah... i'm sick... i hate it... i have to do alot of stuff this week... there went my job this week... damnit... i had to do a heavy water change on my pond add a pond block, and clean out the 100g tank to put it in my room... this really really sucks ass... i have to do a waterchange right now for my fishies... damnit... i hate everything right now... i'm coughing up a lung and it hurts my sides... oh well... i can't keep on crying... damnit i need cash... i need a job ASAP..! but i need cash alot more... what could i sell..?? i wonder what i could pawn... fuck that... i ain't pawning shit... i'm going to go find some lady that needs some servicing, and sell my services to her... butt...! bah i'm fucken bored... i really don't have anything on my mind... other that i'm fucken sick like hell... god damnit... i'm going to go ahead and end this rant...

see you guy's later...

okay... so i'm coming back to tblog... i don't know why... but i am... maybe becouse i feel like i need to start blogging again... maybe i have to vent alot of shit...

but whatever... lol... yeah i'm back... i also have to fix some of the links and add a couple... i have to add the link to my myspace profile... i can't believe i actually have one... i don't know where that came from... and after i finished doing my profile, i found a very old one that i had made before... hahaha... i just never knew it was going to get popular... now everyone and thier fucken mom has myspace... lol... the myspace blog feature sux so much fucken ass... and i think that i will get more traffic with tblog... i used to get a shitload of views... i even had some fans that would subscribe to my shit... pretty insane... yeah... pretty insane ass people reading bullshit that i type up at 1am in the morning... lol... well not now... it's about 12pm now... everyone is gone and i just walked inside the house... i was outside talking to someone...

and guess who it was... a fucken police detective... some bullshit... from along time ago... i fucken hate talking to people... i hate all people... lol... i had to bullshit him sick... i can't really say why he was here... but bah... yeah... some bullshit... well... i really don't have anything to say right now... maybe just that i'm fucken sick... really fucken sick... i want to killsomeone right now... i feel like shit... and it's all carla's fault... she sent me home all fucken stoned without my sweater at night... she's always poisoning me with stuff... it was all her fault... bah... i'll continue later today or tomorrow...

gumbii...